I feel like my heart is quite heavy and wants to sit down for awhile somewhere, where it's nice and quiet. Calm and not crowded.
Where there are absolutely no pressures.
I was supposed to be prepared by now for something. But I am not. Instead I have stopped being productive and I'm giving my heart reasons to shut down. Get a heart failure. Die. Or slowly fade away.
Should I avail this attempt? or Should I wait more and prepare for next attempt? Should I even take this plunge ?
I am having so many heart aches and so many blurry decisions.But then again, If Allah wills, I will be able to pass this test any day of my life. The only condition is. That I appear for the test prepared.
Yeah. Like the quote goes. Trust in Allah but tie your camel.
I wont be regretting or cursing myself then. I won't be hurting inside with stress then.
I must do istikhara...
May Allah help me and everyone who's going through same trouble. This decision vs that decision.
Where there are absolutely no pressures.
I was supposed to be prepared by now for something. But I am not. Instead I have stopped being productive and I'm giving my heart reasons to shut down. Get a heart failure. Die. Or slowly fade away.
Should I avail this attempt? or Should I wait more and prepare for next attempt? Should I even take this plunge ?
I am having so many heart aches and so many blurry decisions.But then again, If Allah wills, I will be able to pass this test any day of my life. The only condition is. That I appear for the test prepared.
Yeah. Like the quote goes. Trust in Allah but tie your camel.
I wont be regretting or cursing myself then. I won't be hurting inside with stress then.
I must do istikhara...
May Allah help me and everyone who's going through same trouble. This decision vs that decision.
1 comment:
Assalamu alaikum. I just wanted to say that I can totally relate to this and what you're going through is not uncommon. I think that sometimes Allah puts us in a certain situation to make us realize His greatness. There are times we need to take a leap of faith not because we trust ourselves, but because of the hope we have on Allah. I hope you're feeling better. :-)
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